Into the night

I walk into the night

On the stepping stones

Into the woods that are far out of sight

You know! The night is cold and terrifying

And so are the woods

So dead, so mystifying

All those creatures of the night

Come out when down goes the sunlight

They're lifeless and they bite

Bite me as I walk into the night

Barefooted, on the stepping stones

Into the dead, and cold

That kill the bones

I walk on

The silence of the woods

The wilderness of the night

Make me corpse with a soul

That neither rejoices nor mourns

To the world that is no longer my own

'Cause now I walk into the night

On the stepping stones

Into the woods

And get lost far out of sight..

Insanity

Its a desert, I search for an oasis but I find none. I see mirages which I see, I feel but doesn't exist, what is it? A rain forest, a night or a day.

Oh it pains me, pains me to death but I don't die. I am in pain, and I love this pain. I want to feel it but I can't feel and this is how I feel. I go out in the sun and curse it, I crawl under my bed and pull over the quilt. I try to converge my world under that quilt, I try to converge all that pain I feel. But I wake up to realise I am dreaming, just find that its a mirage.

I ask him 'do I look like a psycho?' He says 'no, not at all.' But you know what he is lying. I shout right on his face and my voice bounce back from the valley I am looking upon from the top of the cliff. Its a beautiful valley, the smog over the taverns and the fields at the country side and the cattle in the grassland are amazing. I jump off the cliff and fall right on my bed and I fall asleep. All I hear is my breath, my teeth crushing each other, all I hear is dead cold silence all I become is deaf. All I feel is cold, all I feel is pain, all I feel is nothing as I go numb.

I set fire, fuel it with my world that is without you, fuel it with my soul that carve for yours and myself that carved for you, just to make me feel warm, or I will die out in this cold. Death comes to all, strikes us at the right time, it will come to you too. You are no immortal, you're no exception. You'll suffer too, you'll be victimised too, you'll die too. Do you know why? Well I don't know too. Let's just go to sleep for now. Let's just get back to dreams for now, and die for the moment.

Devil Inside

It was once a little pet

I nurtured it

Little did I know

Little did I realise

It will rise

And I will bow

That little pet inside

Turned into a beast

And plague and blight

Hunted my soul

And left my heart to rot

I couldn't control it

I couldn't fight it

It was no tame

Only I was the one for the blame

Surrender was the only option

And I was on my knees

That devil inside

Set the fire alight

Fire of fury

Fire of envy

Burned the noble me

And snuffed away the humble once I was to thee

I hated myself

Hated this world

For they shut me down

While the beast drowned me down..

There were once You

Each day I pass by the place where I last left you, where I last saw you, had a glance at you, the place where I had my last words with you.

Each day I look at the gates, expecting you to come out and look into my eyes and smile at me and wave and I wave back. Each day I wonder how you've been all day without me, 'cause each day with out you for me is like a day that never existed. I never moved, my life, my time, my moments seized right the moment when you decided to seize to exist in my life. That's all you decided for us, you put your last words as verdict and condemned me.

You've no idea how it was for me to wake up to the brutal reality you left behind, how hard it was for me to stand up back on the floor you took away.

I won't blame you, I won't curse you, I won't avenge it. Trust me I'll wait, for as long as you're alive I have faith that one day you'll walk back to my life, give my world back to me, give me back my moments and help start ticking the clock that stopped when you left.

I have faith its gonna be all the same again, and trust me you'd love it..

The hypocrite me

Each day I ask..

Ask myself

Ask question I have answer

Yet I can't answer

Each day I search..

Search for my way

Search it on the map I have

Yet I can't find my way, and I'm lost

Each day I turn..

Turn the pages

To find that spark that once existed between us

Each day I mourn..

Mourn the distance I've grown

Mourn over the ways I've parted

Each day dive..

Dive deep down inside of me

Dive in to locate myself

Yet I can't, the deeper I go the shallow I get

And the more I realise 
The hypocrite inside.

The alley

As the shower poured down

He stood there

With his world upside down

A broken heart

Deranged soul

And feet soaked in dirt

Waited for the raincoat to cover

Waited for the sun to shine over

Gloom haunted him

And past demolished him

Sun never rose

And raincoat never came

The cloud denied him his sunshine

And the shadow denied him the light

The light to shine his way

Through the alley that was dark

And he stood there

Having no clue

Having no idea

He was senseless

And sensed only rain

That drowned him in pain..

A land far away

It was the ticking sound of the clock's second's hand and creaking sound of the rocking chair. But she paid heed to none, sitting in front of fire in her father's study all alone. She was staring blank at her late mother's painting at the wall. It’s been 3 years but seem like yesterday, she has passed away leaving behind these two girls only. Alice's mother was an intelligent lady, on her death bed she advised Alice to take care of Ann like a mother, although she was only 16 at that time but her mother knew their father won't be able to nurture them like a mother.

She forgot the promise she made with her mother and she was now feeling to punished. Alice was left deranged and demolished. She cried a lot, but now the tears have dried out. And in that dark room she was now picking up those shattered pieces of hers, she has been shredded before, and now again. This will be the last time, from now on she will not break, and she will not shed a tear. This is the last time she was sitting in a dark room, she was just re-newing that 3 years' old promise with a new promise with herself; the moment she walk out this room, she won't look back and she won't go back.. 

it does...

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